May 29, 2004
I am at that uncomfortable stage where none of my clothes are fitting me right but I can't get away with wearing maternity clothes either. I know I could go out and just buy a bigger pair of jeans or some other items of clothing, but I can't bring myself to do it. I know that I wouldn't like the way I look in them and it wouldn't solve the problem. I am in that in between stage where I don't really look pregnant yet, but my body isn't it's normal shape. I feel like a fat girl. I have only gained about 5 pounds, but man, can I feel those 5 pounds.
Tonight we went out to dinner and I took off the dress I had been wearing all day, tried on several different ill-fitting items, then put the dress back on. I feel like I have been living in this dress. It's frustrating, but at the same time, at least I have a reason for gaining a few pounds. I don't really mind that much. I just want to feel comfortable. Size 6 jeans are not comfortable right now and i just need to deal with it and enjoy this well worn sundress while I still can.
May 27, 2004
Today we had student nurses at work. One of them turned out to be a midwife. Someone mentioned to her that I was pregnant and within minutes I was lying on a desk in an office with my belly showing and she was using a doppler to find my baby's heartbeat. How many people get to hear their baby's heartbeat at work? It was pretty cool. Lucky for me, one of the people in the room with us was thinking and suggested we call Shane. He got to hear too. She also showed me where my uterus is. I had been poking and prodding trying to feel for it. It was there right in front of me all along and I didn't even know it. I can really feel it. It will only be easier to find from here on out, I suppose. Tomorrow is 13 weeks.
May 24, 2004
I have decided to start writing again. It's almost been a year. It's been a crazy year. I guess I have a lot to write about.
If you had told me I would be here right now, living in a house that we own, working during the day, pregnant, I would never have believed you. Never in a million years. I still don't believe you. I wouldn't have believed we had actually survived two months in Europe. I wouldn't even have believed we have a kitten.
Alas, it's all true.
Europe was wonderful. It felt like we were there forever. It was a great vacation and we had a great time. Can't even begin to tell you all that we did and saw. I am so glad we were able to have that experience and hope we can do it again some day...maybe even be able to stay in a few hotels next time.
We stayed with my parents when we got home. Started working in the beginning of September. Yes, I got a job on the day shift, lucky me. Oh, I am so happy. I didn't realize what it was to sleep like a normal person. My two years in San Luis were spent as a zombie and I didn't even know it.
We didn't believe anyone would actually let us buy a house, but we thought we would give it a try. They actually let us. It is within 5 miles of the houses we both grew up in. We moved in in November. It is a cute little house and it is ours.
Then there is Maeby, our adorable kitten. And is she ever adorable. If you saw her, you would want to eat her she is so sweet.
The best thing so far this year: Baby is due to arrive December 4th. We are overjoyed.
It's been quite a year.
