May 29, 2005
I guess my body decided if it couldn't be sick for Ethan, it would be sick with him. I thought the first half of the week was stressful and hard...yesterday was rough. We now have colds with nasty coughs. It is so hard to hear him coughing. It is a yucky cough and it hurts me, so I know it has to hurt him. At leat his nose isn't as stuffed as mine, so he can eat. His appetite still isn't the best, but he is in pretty good spirits. The hardest thing for me to deal with is that I have to work. I can't call in again, since I called in Friday. I am scheduled to work half a shift today (at time and a half, so I can't complain) and I am scheduled to work tomorrow (also at time and a half, since it is Memorial Day). I don't want to call in. I want the extra money. I want us to feel better. I know it is probably a bad idea to go to work with a cold and I am going to have to do my coughing and nose blowing in private to avoid freaking my patients out, but I need to go. I just want to be home to take care of my little boy and to rest myself. It's rough. I don't regret calling in Friday, when we were on;y semi-sick, especially because I would go out of my way to work these next two shifts for the extra money, but I wish I could just always be at home whether sick or healthy. It is my prayer that I will be able to do that someday soon. Till then, I need to have a good attitude and be thankful that I have this great job and such wonderful babysitters to watch our little boy.
May 27, 2005
It's been a weird week. At work on Tuesday, I got a call from my mom that Ethan was sick. He had a low grade temperature, wasn't eating much, and just wasn't himself. I couldn't leave work, however much I wanted to. I just knew he would appreciate his mommy to hold him and that he probably would be more inclined to eat if he had the real thing in front of him instead of a bottle. I got home at 8 and he was just sitting there with his daddy, hardly moving. Poor little guy. The temperature went away, but he is still not himself. His tummy is bothering him and he still isn't eating as well as usual. He isn't is normal smiley, squealy self.
So, last night I decided I was calling in sick today and planned to call the doctor. I felt super guilty, but he needs me! I called the doctor this morning and they didn't have me come in. They said there is a stomach virus going around and it sounds like he has it. Poor little boy. I am not feeling so hot myself. I have a cough and feel like there are bugs in my lungs. Yep, bugs. Crawling around. I don't like it.
I hope he is back to his normal self tomorrow. It has been stressful for me. This is the first time he has really been sick. It's just hard to know what is going on and what to do. I know my mom appreciated me staying home with him, though. Babies are a lot of work, but sick babies are even more work.
May 23, 2005
I am feeling a little discouraged because Ethan is not sleeping very well. He hadalways slept pretty well at night and was sleeping all night, like, 9 hours in a row until I went back to work in the middle of March. Since then, there have been maybe two or three nights he has slept all the way through and if I am lucky, he will sleep about five hours in a row. It is really hard on me. Especially on the nights I have to get up for work in the morning. I am starting to feel tired. It is really frustrating because I know about five people with babies that are all within a month of Ethan and they are all sleeping like angels. And most of them get to stay home with their sweet little angels. I pray that he will sleep every night and I have tried discussing it with him, but it hasn't really helped. I hope he gets back into it soon. Another set back has been the whole rolling over thing. He can roll onto his tummy, but can't get back to his back yet. So, at 3 AM he will roll onto his tummy, wake himself up, start crying because he is stuck, and keep crying until I go unstick him. It's kind of cute, but I just want to sleep.
We had a pretty busy weekend. It was our friend Jim's birthday on Friday and since he is a big Star Wars fan, we went to Fidel's and then to see the new Star Wars movie. Ethan stayed home (well, he didn't stay home...he just didn't come with us) and it was kind of nice to be out with friends and each other. We went to Fidel's for dinner (everybody's favorite) with about 10 other people, then headed to the movies. Now, I grew up with Star Wars all around me. I have probably seen the original Star Wars movies, like, 100 times each thanks to Andrew, but I cannot remember for the life of me more than the basics. I don't hate it like I used to and I do enjoy seeing the movies, but I cannot keep things straight or remember enough from the other movies to make sense of a lot of the things that happen. Anyway, I liked it better than the last two and thought it was pretty good aside from the cheesy love scenes. Our friend Matt came down to see it with us and spent the weekend, so we had even more fun ahead of us.
Saturday morning, we went to Panera for bagels. Shane needed to do some work, so Matt, Ethan, and I decided to leave him alone for a while and called our friend Adam. He was working and said we could meet him for lunch in Pacific Beach if we wanted to. So, to Pacific Beach we went. We had to wait for him a little while as he was in the middle of dealing with some fight he had to break up (he is a police officer). We ended up at Jack In the Box since he didn't have a lot of time. It was the first time we had ever seen him in his uniform and been with him while other people saw him in his uniform. People called him sir and really listened to him, even if he was just explaining to them that they needed to be buzzed in at the counter to use the bathroom. There was respect in the air. It was funny and cool. Ethan got a badge sticker from Officer Adam and we headed home. Later that evening we met up with both Adam and Alicia at an ice cream shop and hung out for a while. It was nice for all of us to be together again. Afterwards, we went and visited Ryan, Mandy, and Macy at their house. We stayed there until Ethan could stand it no longer. Lots of time with friends this weekend, which was lots of fun. It was nice to be out and be social and I had a good time. I think we all did.
May 17, 2005
The physician's at work will occasionally order pet therapy for one or two of their patients. This means that a volunteer brings in their pet (usually a dog) for the patient to pet and visit with. I guess it is supposed to brighten their day a little bit. There was a little daschund visiting yesterday. She was the cutest thing and the best thing about it was that on her leash was an official hospital name tag with her picture on it. It said Sophie (insert owner's last name here) under her name. That would cheer anybody up, I think. She was pretty darn cute.
May 11, 2005
My baby is a kleptomaniac. Or he tries to be one, anyway. I cannot count how many times we have almost left a store that has shopping carts only to discover something has found it's way under his baby carrier in that front seat part of the shopping cart and we almost made our way home without paying for it. Yesterday, we almost made it out of Stater Brothers with six yogurts and two greeting cards (I know, I know...greeting cards from Stater Brothers...kind of weird). Last week it was baby formula and lip gloss. We actually made it out of Albertons one day last month with a free yogurt. I still feel kind of guilty, but I was putting him in the car and found it and I figured it was like, 50 cents and wasn't worth loading him up, going back in and confessing and giving it back and all, so I just took it with me. Ethan must like yogurt because it is a frequent culprit of his efforts to rip off the grocery store. I need to stop putting stuff in that top area to avoid this problem, I know, but it is so easy to just put little items there. Today at Costco, we almost stole a huge box of kudos. And the weird thing is, if I really wanted to steal all of this stuff, I could probably get away with it by setting it there. It would work. But I couldn't do it. I am still feeling guilty about a yogurt from a month ago.
May 8, 2005
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My sweet little Mother's Day gift.
May 6, 2005
Shane seems to think that cereal should not be eaten for dinner. I disagree. After a really long day at work, cereal is the perfect dinner. Especially if you have to make the dinner yourself. It is fairly nutritious. Lots of folic acid. Calcium in the milk. How can it be bad?
