Erika Bonham dot com

May 29, 2005

I guess my body decided if it couldn't be sick for Ethan, it would be sick with him. I thought the first half of the week was stressful and hard...yesterday was rough. We now have colds with nasty coughs. It is so hard to hear him coughing. It is a yucky cough and it hurts me, so I know it has to hurt him. At leat his nose isn't as stuffed as mine, so he can eat. His appetite still isn't the best, but he is in pretty good spirits. The hardest thing for me to deal with is that I have to work. I can't call in again, since I called in Friday. I am scheduled to work half a shift today (at time and a half, so I can't complain) and I am scheduled to work tomorrow (also at time and a half, since it is Memorial Day). I don't want to call in. I want the extra money. I want us to feel better. I know it is probably a bad idea to go to work with a cold and I am going to have to do my coughing and nose blowing in private to avoid freaking my patients out, but I need to go. I just want to be home to take care of my little boy and to rest myself. It's rough. I don't regret calling in Friday, when we were on;y semi-sick, especially because I would go out of my way to work these next two shifts for the extra money, but I wish I could just always be at home whether sick or healthy. It is my prayer that I will be able to do that someday soon. Till then, I need to have a good attitude and be thankful that I have this great job and such wonderful babysitters to watch our little boy.

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